On the Down of A See-Saw

I'm oscillating from mild depression to profound hopelessness to fleeting moments of superficial buoyancy, in no particular order. Do you have moments when you know you are supposed to do this and this, but ended up doing 5% of this and 95% of that which is not in the to-do list at all? It gets worse when the rest of your world know what you are supposed to do, and keep asking you if you have done this and this, when all they are really doing is using it as an opening line of some sort to either chat you up or check you out. Coz at the end of the day none of them really cares if you have completed this and this or failed this or that. That's of course until their next talk cock session when your failure to achieve certain whatever is brought up as one of the main gossip fodder.. in your absence and behind your back of course.

But because all these would probably not happen if you have just stick to doing what you are supposed to do, if they do happen, then you probably deserve it.

You pathetic soul.