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freaking low after being niao by him. its becoming a common situation these days. i admit, i havent been pia-ing as hard as i should be. hes worried for me. nevertheless mood just go all the way down each time it happens. verbal encouragement?.. no. maybe he thinks i dont deserve it.
before this, was looking fwd to a lunch break chat with a gd friend but was brushed off crudely cos he was pissed with his house mates. any1's fault? no1's. but it did add to the suckiness of the day.

sigh. why do i feel so freaking alone sometimes? i always try to be there for pp i care abt. but when things seem to go awry for me, i seem to get more shit frm pp. i dont deserve anything? maybe. a good solitary cry should help. let me give myself a pat on back. cheer up angie, being gloomy doesnt help clear the clouds. but being optimistic will let u see the silver lining.