i asked monet yest, if there was sth w me. he said i was rash to act if i think i was right, regardless of pp's feelings. 'childish', he said.

i'd thought that being forth front with words/actions means not being hypocrite..., and that i was being comfortable and myself with u. guess not. perhaps thats y zak is so darn diplomatic w his words. maybe i was the one with a pr prob cos i wasnt considerate enough of other pp's feelings. sigh... guess this is it yeah. just discover another fault with myself. darn. feeling lousy. time to learn to take the foot out of my mouth.

incidentally, huili mentioned that she's a 'peaceful creature' so finds it unneccessary to elaborate or even say things which would lead to any kinda unhappiness. "some things r better left unsaid."

unlike her i think ive always had a thing with challenges and conflicts. couple this with my tendency to be, quoting frm zak: "too frank for [people]"... = shortcut to strained relations = more pr woes when i step into the corporate jungle. sigh.